Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Slacker

Yesterday, I decided to look at my daily average on my pump.

206 mg/dl.

Doing some math in my head (albeit, not good math), I concluded that if I keep this kind of activity up I will have an A1C in the 8 range.

8!!

Throughout my entire pregnancy I maintained an A1C in the 5 range. Almost three months after I had B, it was still in the 5 range. Now, who knows where that number will be.

I would feel ashamed, but I am entirely too exhausted. Diabetes has taken a backseat to anything else and that is something I am not proud of. As I write this blog I know that my dexcom break is over. My days of only checking three or four times are over. Time to get back on the wagon!

Before this pregnancy I was convinced that one child was all that I needed. Once I brought my perfect baby home from the hospital, I knew I wanted to fill our house with smiley little J clones. Seriously. A lot. This means, keeping my body a perfect environment for any future baby. This delivery required a c-section and most likely any subsequent pregnancies will also require one, so for safety's sake, it is likely that three c-sections will be my max. In order to have two more perfect pregnancies I need to not allow my body to take a break from diabetes. I need to recognize that in a land of good control, there are not any breaks from diabetes. To live a long and happy life with my crowded home of children, I need to make sure my care does not take a back burner.

So, here I am. Back on the wagon. No more d-generate diabetes care.

2 comments:

Scott K. Johnson said...

I haven't gone through the whole pregnancy thing, but I can only imagine how intensely focused you had to be. I would bet that it's completely normal to let things slide for a while.

Not to mention, being a mom is HARD work! You are no longer the boss of your schedule.

I think it's good to keep an eye on things, so that you don't slip too far for too long. But it's probably also good to recognize that it's normal for this to happen.

But then again, what the heck do I know? :-)

Nikki LeForce DeFalco said...

Hah! What do any of us know, right? I appreciate all of your comments :)