I don’t know where to start. I spent so much of my life unsure if this was the path I wanted to take, but the second I decided I didn’t want anything else, I was hooked. You became not just a thought, but a hopeful reality.
This journey has been interesting. I spent over a year making sure my body was ready for you. Mommy wanted to make sure your temporary home was perfect. This meant obsessive blood sugar checks, wearing a continuous glucose monitor 24/7, and anal carb counting, but I did it! I did it for you – and maybe a little for daddy because he wants me to stick around for a while. When I got my endocrinologists approval back in May, it still wasn’t real, until November.
The day I found out you were with me daddy was out of town. I had a tiny suspicion, but had been wrong before, so I didn’t get my hopes up. But, there you were. Since, mommy is an over thinker, she used a digital test. There was no problem deciphering the results.
You were there, baby. It was unmistakable.
I couldn’t wait to share the news. Your fur sisters got to hear it first. “I’m pregnant!” I said to them. “I am really pregnant!” Of course, K and C didn’t understand just yet, but they will when you arrive, in fact K keeps sniffing my belly like she knows something is in there. I couldn’t wait to tell your daddy. There was no surprise reveal for him. I called him and said, “It worked. I am pregnant” and do you know what your daddy said? He said, “I’m the man.” Yep, your daddy said that. Your childhood is going to be very interesting, baby.
Every day since then I have continued to prepare my body for you. My A1c is sitting in the 5’s right now. I am going to appointment after appointment to ensure that you, my baby, will have everything you have every wanted and needed. Some days are harder than others. A surprise spike in my blood sugar makes me nervous I am hurting you. Morning sickness was no fun. It takes a lot of energy to have diabetes and a baby. I know it will all be worth it.
I love you so much and I haven’t even met you. I cannot wait to tell you to your sweet face, my baby boy. See you in July!