Friday, November 11, 2011
Day 11 - Best Diabetes Day
What is your best diabetes day?
I have written about this before. Pregnancy. A scary term for me, for anyone I am sure. It is a new word for me. It feels funny and jumbled in my mouth when I say it. It is so insane to me to admit it. So weird. I was always that person who really wasn't sure if I even wanted to have kids.
No, I am not pregnant. Not even close. But, the best diabetes day for me happens to be the day I got the green light.
I have been working with my endocrinologist for over a year on the idea of this future possibility. A year of incessant bg checks, not a day without a CGM, crazy concentration on bolus and basal rates. It is consuming.
It isn't easy to plan a pregnancy when you have type 1 diabetes. You have to be very hands on. Very. Accidental pregnancy is detrimental to both the PWD and the future child. It is unfair, but it is what it is. I have had a lot of pain and disappointment in the last year, but I know that when we are finally there, we will be so ready. I will have made an effort to do everything I could possibly do to make a nice environment for my future baby. I know that I will give them the best body possible.
So back in May, when I got the approval, I sat on the examination table and felt the tears of joy in my eyes. This was something I didn't realize I would suddenly want so badly. I was suddenly overwhelmed with the love that I could share. I still am.
Someday. Now, it is just someday soon.