Thursday, December 21, 2006

Christmas is here...almost.

I feel that in the last week I have bolused for about 4000 grams of carbs. Not only is this my problem, but is seems to be a universal problem throughout the Diabetes OC. Some of us have very strong willpower, however, I am not one of them.

It all started yesterday, my boss gave me candy for Christmas...I cannot quit eating it, nor do I want to quit eating it. I know all of the tricks, out of sight out of mind, have one piece put it up, keep healthy snacks around...blah blah blah. I cannot quit eating candy. Unfortunately, today is only Thursday. There are at least four to five more days of this Christmas candy madness.

I am a big believer of not depriving myself of normalcy, so I shall continue to enjoy my candy and I urge all of you to take a break from your strict diabetic lives and do the same.

Thank God for the bolus wizard. Mini-med I am sending you a Christmas card.

Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 15, 2006

What's with today, today?

When I was in the ninth grade I felt that every situation in life warranted an "Empire Records" movie quote. It seemed like every element of my life was relevant to one of the movie's quotes. Granted, some of them are totally outlandish, but some of them are fantastic. Such as: "Who know where thoughts come from, they just appear" and "damn the man, save the empire!"Okay, so enough with the empire, but seriously do you ever think "What's with today, today?" Why is today any different than any other day. As a T1 Diabetic I often feel like every day I face something with this disease that makes me wonder...what the crap is going on with that? If it is a random high, or low blood sugar, am I feeling sick because of my high blood sugar, or am I high because I am sick. There is not a day that goes by that I am not puzzled by my diabetes life.This past week has held some super high blood sugars, but today, out of nowhere, I have perfect blood sugars, I didn't leave the hundreds all day! I am sure tomorrow will not warrant the same. but as of today, what's with today, today?

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Ode to the Insulin Pen

I have been through several methods of depositing insulin into my body. Don't get me wrong, I love my pump, but it seems that my fail safe is my trusty insulin pen. Since diagnosed I have been through several models, but they all serve the same purpose, to be there for me when everything else is not.

When first diagnosed, it was syringes, then my pen, and now my pump, but that something that always leaves the house with me, the wallet, the pump, and the meter, is the pen. Whether it has been with my Humalog, or Novolog, and now Apidra, it has been my savior.

The last couple of days I have been having really awful bs readings. I have only consciously been in the 100's once, but I am stubborn, it is a new site and it is obviously giving me insulin, but the absorption rate is not so great. When I put in the site it went in so perfectly, I put it in a little higher on my abdomen than normal, but I figured hey there has got to be less scar tissue in that area. Apparently not. I absolutely hate wasting infusion sets. Absolutely hate it. They are not cheap and even though I have fairly good insurance I would rather be normal and spend that much money on something else. Like some really great shoes, or a "grown up" purse. (forgive me I am just now experiencing the grown up world) So, today I will be changing out my site, normally I would refill the reservoir and let it stretch a couple more days, but I am tired of taking unnecessary injections and feeling fuzzy.

Once again, thank you insulin pen, thank you for going that extra mile to keep me alive.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Happy Holidays!

Hi everyone! It has been forever since I made my last post. I feel like such a slacker. I have been so busy lately, I am going to try to be a better blogger and write every day, or maybe every other day. I honestly don't feel like I am interesting enough to come up with something everyday.

I am so excited about Christmas! My husband has been transferred like a thousand miles away for his work and I haven't seen him since before Thanksgiving, but he will be home next week!

I haven't even started my Christmas shopping and I have so many people to buy for. I have just been so busy at work I haven't accomplished anything else otherwise.

I am now working for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation, its a selfish job for me I know, but I love it. I think I could work there for the rest of my life and be perfectly content. Every time the phone rings with a parent of a newly diagnosed child on the other end, I feel like I have found my calling. Speaking with these distraught parents of my past experiences make me feel like I have really made a difference in their lives, cheesy I know, but I also know that when you are first diagnosed it is so hard to transition into your new life. It is even harder to find people who really understand. That is why am so glad I have found the Diabetes OC. I know I haven't posted in a long time, but I read everyday. If it weren't for people like Kerri, Nicole, Sandra, and the many others I don't know if I would have the same outlook on my life. These people really help me strive to be better and to educate and to become a new person. Thank you from me and I'm sure many, many others.