Friday, March 31, 2006

Brittle Diabetes- Take Two

Okay, so the reasoning for asking everyone's thoughts on the phrase brittle diabetes, has to do with someone I went to college with. She is my age, T1, and has been since she was 17 years old. She, however, unlike me, does not take care of herself. She is on the same insulin regimen as I was before I went on the pump (Lantus at night, and Novolog/Humalog for boluses during the day for every meal). She hardly ever takes any insulin, maybe one shot a day. She doesn't take care of herself at all. She never checks her blood sugar and she is constantly drinking regular soda and never bolusing for it. Since I met her she has lost like forty pounds, been in the hospital many times, and is ALWAYS sick. I have tried many times to convince her that she is killing herself. The damage she is doing is irreversible. I have so much as checked her blood sugar and measured her shots for her when she is too sick to do it herself. Then I graduated college and moved away and now I don't know who is taking care of her.

Now that I gave the background, on to the reason for starting the discussion on "brittle diabetes." So, I am hardly ever giving people reasons to even worry about me and my T1 diabetes. I never miss a shot, I check my bg 8-10 times a day, I am now on the pump, and I want to continue to be healthy, therefore, I do not suffer from many of the complications that my college friend is. When I try to explain to mutual friends that she is causing her self to be so sick they say, "Her diabetes is not like yours, she is a 'brittle diabetic'." I am like WTF, we have the same type, she is no worse off than I am, and how dare you say I am no where near as bad as a diabetic as she is. You want to know the difference, I CARE ABOUT MYSELF. I feel sorry for my friend and I have tried and tried to help her, but she is 23 and should be helping herself. I am not judging her by any means and I know every one can go through a denial period, but I don't know what else as a friend I could do and I am so tired of people telling me my diabetes isn't bad because I don't have the problems she does.

Give me a break! I am sorry to rant like this, but I know you guys are the ones who will understand.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

TAXES!!!!

It seems like every time I log onto my blog, I log on to complain. So, the complaint of the day is my income taxes. This is the first year I have ever had to personally, with my husband, file my taxes. My parents have always done it before because I was a student and not married and they claimed me, so easy for me, nice. Not so easy this year.

My husband and I used the same person that does my parent's taxes because she could get us back a lot of money. Well, she has messed around and waited forever to file our taxes. We paid an extra $75 , on top of her fee, to have her file these taxes electronically. This has been a while ago, still no money. We called her yesterday to see if she maybe had filed them yesterday and she was like, no, but maybe I will get to them today. WTF???????? Come one lady it has been almost a month.

To make matters worse there were some bills I very irresponsibly put off until the taxes came in. What was I thinking?? Now I am so stressed about money and getting into graduate school and I am about to go crazy! Hopefully she filed the taxes yesterday and they will be here shortly, we can only hope. I think I have learned my lesson about blowing money for no reason on a false hope that the other money will be here soon. OH WELL!

P.S. I had to change my pink background...there was only so much of that I could take. :)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Reverse Diabetes

So, yesterday I was in Barnes and Noble looking around and as usual I walked through the diabetes section to see if there was anything new I would like to have and there it was...

Reverse Diabetes in Two Months or Less blah blah blah

So I pick it up just for the hell of it and flip through it. Of course I knew that the book was aimed at people with T2, but I looked through it anyway and guess what wasn't there...the fact that it was aimed at T2 diabetics. It would be easy for people who are recently diagnosed T1 to pick up the book and actually buy it thinking they could actually reverse diabetes. It just frustrates me that people make money by giving other people false hopes, because that is what they are, false hopes. Reverse Diabetes, what a bunch of bs.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Type 1A?

Okay, so I have been doing some reading today and stumbled across an article that describes two different types of T1 diabetes. Type 1A and type 1B. I didn't know that there were two different types of Type 1. I hope I don't sound stupid reporting this, but I am really confused. My endo, or any doctors for that matter, never told me anything other than that I am T1, that is my diagnosis. Does anyone have a better understanding on this? Please share????

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Happy Birthday to me!

So... today is my 23rd birthday. I am becoming more and more of an adult. I got bad news in the mail yesterday, my blood work from my test came back and apparently I have high cholesterol. I don't know much about cholesterol and I have never really worried about it, but on my paperwork as I was going through the very long list of numbers that I do not know anything about, was

194...

and beside it was written, close to good and a big fat H for high!

I do not understand how my cholesterol can even be above normal. I am not overweight, I am actually pretty small, I don't salt my food, I don't eat a lot of meat, high cholesterol isn't in my family... I just don't understand. I am a little frustrated if you cannot tell.

Also, missing from my blood work is my latest A1C which is what I really wanted to know. This is a new endo so I am I wondering how everything is going to work with her. So, not only am I worried about my cholesterol, now I am worried about my A1C! Sorry, I just needed to vent a bit.

Maybe the cholesterol reading is all wrong. Now I am off to celebrate my birthday!

Monday, March 20, 2006

So sick!!!

Hi everyone. Thanks so much for all of the positive welcomes! It really makes me feel better that there are other people everywhere that really can relate to what I am feeling.

It has been a couple of days since the last time I have written. I have been sick, with a sinus infection. It really sucks that such a minor thing, like a sinus infection, takes such a toll on my body. My medications make me not hungry, but my blood sugars are still way high even though I am constantly bolusing. Yuck. That is truly how I feel.

To make matters worse, it is my Spring Break. Oh well, last year on Spring Break I had strep. I think I would rather have the sinus infection. :)

I am really excited to be a part of this blogging community and it has truly made me want to become more of an advocate for type 1 diabetes. I would like to help people like many of you have helped me just by reading your blogs. Thanks so much to all of you for that. I look forward to becoming a part of this online community!

Friday, March 10, 2006

Ouch

So, today I go to get my blood drawn for various tests and I have the worst experience ever. Sadly I am a diabetic who is scared of stuff like getting your blood drawn. I am known to faint if I work myself up enough over it. I go to this new place to have the procedure done because I have just moved to Tulsa. They put me in a room with four other people all having their blood drawn at the same time as me. I want to cry! I cannot watch other people have this done, or hear the nurses talking about it. I wish there was some privacy to this, but oh well. I just needed to rant a bit, but now I am better.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Trial Run

Okay, so I have been reading countless blogs about diabetes for the past two days and I have finally talked myself into starting one. I think these other blogs have helped me to cope with the fact that I have (and have had for a while) a disease that is not going to go away. So here goes...

I am 22 years old, almost 23, and I have Type 1 diabetes. Damn the luck huh? I usually do pretty well with the whole thing, but some days I just want to scream, or cry, which is what I usually do.

I am a pumper. I love my Medtronic Minimed Paradigm 515. I just went on the pump last year and so far I have loved every minute of it. So far. I just graduated college last year and got married after graduation. I know 22 is young to get married, but I already have a college degree and I needed medical insurance (if you have type 1 diabetes you can feel me on this one). I am just kidding about getting married for the medical insurance. I married a wonderful guy, Joey, who I met my first semester of college.

I guess I will start out slow on the blog thing, but I am sure once I get the hang of it I will be addicted.